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Disappointment

“There’s nothing better than good sex. But bad sex? A peanut butter and jelly sandwich is better than bad sex.”

β€” Billy Joel

I feel cheated. “Seann, Jr.” just left. He came over and we kissed and made up. Then we had sex. And it was disappointing. It was like my first time all over again. Painful and unorgasmic, if that’s even a word. I don’t think I like sex. Hell, I could have gotten more enjoyment out of watching porn without masturbating than having sex. Now, I don’t know how to feel. I just. . . . well I just have this perpetual scowl on my face because I’m confused. What happened to sex being more enjoyable once you’re older? I’m just so disappointed! I want to sex to. . . . well, I want it to be like in the books. Sparks flying, never-ending orgasms, post-coital glow. I want hot passionate sex that I can actually enjoy. I don’t think I’m going to be seeing “Seann, Jr.” anymore. He, at least, enjoyed himself. From a guys standpoint, being “tight” is a good thing; never mind the fact that it can be painful and uncomfortable for females. But I think his ego may be a little bruised. He seemed almost as disappointed as me to discover that I didn’t have an orgasm. He appeared relieved to leave. That’s the end of my “fiery” college affair. What a crock! Sex is overrated.

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One thought on “Disappointment

  1. From my own point of view I would like to correct your statement to: basic college sex is overrated*
    I have had enough of it to know that it is a million times better when you do it with someone you are in love with. I’ve only done that once and I think I orgasmed like three times to his one.
    On the other hand I’m one of the people who just likes to do it. I think it’s fun and exciting, but you have to find someone that finds it fun and exciting, too. Someone who will think about your pleasure just as much as his own. Unfortunately most college guys just aren’t at that level yet.
    My advice would be to wait for someone you really have feelings for and who really cares about you, too. But of course the most important thing is to do what makes you comfortable, Malia. I promise it will get better as you get older. But, like, older, older. Not just early 20’s (like me lol).
    -Sabrina

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