“But I have my life, I’m living it. It’s twisted, exhausting, uncertain, and full of guilt, but nonetheless, there’s something there.”

— Banana Yoshimoto, The Lake

An update on me. As I’ve previously mentioned, I’ve started my driving class. I don’t believe I’ve mentioned though that I passed my written class exam with flying colors (95%) and now I’ve started the driving portion so I’m that much closer to getting my driver’s license. I read in the manual that cars are a symbol of freedom to Americans and it is. When I think of getting my license I think of freedom; of no longer being a burden on someone who’d rather not give me a lift. I will soon have my own car. I have my own car, its a graduation gift but I can’t drive it without my license. And I start college next month. Wow. Summer has flown by. And I’m still not prepared. It appears that I may be going out of state after all since I’ve been provided with more aid but I still need a private student loan to cover my housing and meals but I don’t have a cosigner with good credit. And I wouldn’t know how to start to look for off-campus housing if I find myself unable to afford to live on-campus. I’ve been worrying about little else but this college stuff. I need it all to be perfectly aligned. Everything settled. No questions about how am I going to afford this or that. But life isn’t perfect. And while I may be stressed, I’m glad to be living my life.